Our Vacation Sunday

Today Josh and I went to FCC for church. We went to their 11am service. It was ok. The music was a little more traditional than what I like but it was good. Rick Ives gave the message, about "Our Motives". He speaks very plain and clear and was easy to understand. If any of you know Rick he is a very large man, but you can tell that he is such a "big teddy bear" of a guy. He seems very sincere in caring about people. While we were there we saw our family doctor, John Sutter and his family. Man, he has a lot of kids. It was really cool to see a lot of families today that you could tell really loved each other. I had a revelation from God that our new church in Arkansas is going to be a really good role-model church when it comes to Families. That in itself is going to be a huge oddity to the "prechristians" that we will serve. I am begining to see and receive vision about what KeyPoint Church is going to be like. Wow, things are getting exciting.

I will be turning in my resignation letter at work on Monday, so this move is becoming very real to me! I am super anxoius to get moving in God's direction, so my life can be the best it's ever been!

Bad Days

Well, here I am at work and it has been one of those days. It seems that because the opening of a show is tonight, everyone is high strung. I seem to be the "punching bag" for everyone's anger, frustration, etc. I can't understand why it is that all mistakes today are my fault, but hey I can take it. I've learned lately how to just let things roll off my back. I am starting to feel like a stranger in all areas in my life. I know that God is really changing me now, to prepare me for my new purpose. I am feeling better in my spiritual life. Thanks to all who have been praying for me.

Its kinda weird

I am experiencing quite a range in feelings on all of this Arkansas stuff. Sometimes I feel really at ease and peaceful, and sometimes I feel like its all going to fall apart. The funny thing is the change can happen in a matter of minutes. I have really been feeling seperated from God lately. Like I can't approach him. I want so badely to be connected again, and yet I feel like I don't even know where to start to get there. Then on the other hand I feel so confident that we are taking the step that God wants us to, and that eveything will work out , no matter how I feel. Man it is one wild roller-coaster that I'm riding these days. I want to have a close relationship with GOD again and I need everyones prayers to help me get there.

Thanks

What an emotional weekend!

Well, first thing was Josh leaving to go to Arkansas, to decide our fate there. I had to take him and drop him off at the airport and just leave. That was difficult, knowing that I wanted to go with him and see "it" for myself. He took a camera and said he would take lots of pictures. Next was my trip to Cincinnati to see my folks. They moved there about a month ago and I hadn't been to see them yet. While I was there they showed me around their "new" home. It was really cool seeing them so excited about their new place of residence. I really miss them, but also know that them moving away first will make our move a little easier. After spending the night down in Cinci, I began to get worried about our "baby" Kafka(for anyone who doesn't know thats our dog). I knew that I needed to get home cause she needed attention. So I headed home. Of course when I left my mom cried and I felt bad leaving. While I was driving home Josh called and we talked about Arkansas (since he is there) for about a half hour. He was so excited, just like a kid at Christmas! The more details he gave the more I cried, since it seems like things are finally falling into place. I guess I am realizing that God really does have everything under control. I should have came to this conclusion long before now, but sometimes you just get caught up in the organazation of doing it all! I am super excited about everything that is happening with us. I almost wish it would just hurry up and happen so I can look back and say "God did this, and I am so blessed to be able to a part of something so much bigger than what I could ever imagine possible". I am looking forward to the changes that are going to happen over the next couple of months.

The time has come!

Well, it seems that I have now joined the droves of people that already share their thoughts with the world. I figured it was time to let people understand me a little better.

The main thing that has been in my thoughts lately has been the Arkansas move! WOW, so much to figure out and yet so little. Things have kinda been a whirlwind of "to dos" for me. I need to prepare so many things, organize everything, and yet I have no control over it. How is that? I have felt as though I have been given the first piece to a puzzle, and told to figure out what the image is, without ever seeing the other pieces. A lot of emotions have taken effect on me lately, realizing that I am getting ready to leave everything, everyone. Which brings me to the next point; Who is everyone? I don't feel as though some people around me are going to even notice I'm gone. I have seen such a change in the way people act around Josh and I both since they found out. Why? We are still your friends, so why does this have to change that. I guess that when things like this happen you find out who your "true" friends really are!